Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Gimme a break!


Not only would I like a Kit Kat, but I'd also like a break. This post is for venting reasons. So really, you don't have to read it. Lately I've been trying really hard to be extra social and even.... date. I know right? Anyway, it's been a disaster. One kid gave me a just friends talk after hanging out twice and now I have to be the bad guy and give my very own just friends talk. It's ridiculous. I mean who wrote these rules about dating and "dtr"ing (defining the relationship... for those of you who aren't hipsters) I mean why can't I just send a text that says, hey! let's be friends! I don't like you like that! I mean isn't that so easy?! it just ticks me right off. I shouldn't be talkin though, that's probably what I'll end up doing. Anyway. I'm taking a break from the dating game for a while. Mom says she wouldn't be dating in my situation. Hmph. Which brings me to my next point.

I have two scriptures that I will be trying extra hard to apply in my life for the next little while, then hopefully they will be come habits. What's that, 21 days? Anyway...

D&C 88:124
Cease to be idle; cease to be unclean; cease to find fault one with another; cease to sleep longer than is needful; retire to thy bed early, that ye may not be weary; arise early, that your bodies and your minds may be invigorated.

and....

D&C 88:119
Organize yourselves; prepare every needful thing; and establish a house, even a house of prayer, a house of fasting, a house of faith, a house of learning, a house of glory, a house of order, a house of God

School is almost over and I'm going to have a little bit more free time for a while, until I start working way too much over the summer that is. I know that Satan is prying at every angle of my life right now. And the place he succeeds the most is in my laziness and procrastination.

A goal not written down is simply a wish, hence this lovely post.

Every night I will write down what my next day holds, including when I'll wake up, and what needs to be accomplished. I will read my scriptures and say my prayers every night AND every morning. I will pray for and seek missionary opportunities in my every day life. And I will learn to budget, and cut exceedingly unnecessary spending. This is will happen for 21 days!! Then hopefully we'll have some habits on our hands.

go team. go team go.

And gosh I miss Trace.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

The life of a YSA.

Well I haven't journalified my blog in a while. So here are some pictures from some recent ongoings in my life that I thought wasn't eventful...

this was a huge YSA tubing trip up at Soldier Hollow. So fun.

Emelia's boyfriend is in a band and I do love me some live music, so we went to watch. that's Spencer, he's like my big brother. He lived in our apartment complex with Emelia's big brother. so they watch over us. it's cute.

This is old, but this was Valentine's day. Whitney, Trace's sister had a "little" get together and we had a lovely dinner and played just dance on the wii all night. The best part was Kelsey's prom date giving me a rose.

And alas, we got to relive our glory days yet another year! Dance Company's concert was wonderful this year. And Traci Pays still manages to teach me so much about life.

Cynd and I finally got to spend some time together this week cuz it was her spring break. We played on Thursday and then Friday we went to a free concert a girl in my ward was singing in, then we played Saturday too!! I needed me some Cyndi time.

Lexi (my bff Caleb's significant other) came over to visit and I said "do you have a letter to read me?" and she sheepishly pulled 4 out of her purse. I said "Lex, don't worry about it" and pulled 4 out of mine too :) We love our missionaries!

So the highlight of my week is usually FHE. We have a huge budget for it so we have a lot of fun. this one we had a cook off with a whole bunch of random ingredients and it was a blast.

another FHE was a 70s dance party. three words: my natural habitat.

so looks like time is still flying and I'm enjoying it quite a bit! Trace is doing great, I do miss him a lot, but I'm trying to date and have fun still! Go team.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

now that's skill


Today I went to Pei Wei. And I ate my whole meal.
Without a fork.
Bam.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Listen, Listen

Listen to the still small voice. Listen, listen; when you have to make a choice, he will guide you always. We have learned since we were in primary that there is a little voice that will tell us what to do. We begin to recognize it as a conscience; we feel it tell us that sneaking a cookie before dinner might actually be a bad idea. Then as we get a little older, we try to ignore that pressing feeling that says you should probably tell Mom and Dad you failed your math test. Then, when we get a even older, we begin searching for that voice, needing help in making vital choices that will affect the rest of our lives. It is that point in life that I would like to talk about. How is it that we can recognize the Spirit of the Holy Ghost? How can we recognize that an arbitrary thought didn’t just pop into our head, but that we are receiving divine revelation?

Prophets in both the latter-days and ancient times have given council concerning listening to the Spirit. Each has told us how important it is, and they have told us different ways that we can recognize the voice of the Spirit. Brigham Young said, “Tell the brethren to keep their hearts open to conviction, so that when the Holy Ghost comes to them, their hearts will be ready to receive it.” President Monson also referred to opening your heart “…even your very souls, to the sound of that special voice that testifies of truth.” These men of God have testified that this isn’t exactly a voice we will directly hear, but a voice we will feel.

We learn in Third Nephi and throughout other scriptures, that the voice of the Spirit is not a voice of thunder, it is not loud or harsh, but rather as still and small, of perfect mildness, as if it had been a whisper, and it can pierce even the very soul and cause the heart to burn. (Boyd K. Packer, 1991) The Nephites in Third Nephi have to hear the voice of the Lord multiple times before they realize what it is, how applicable this is to our day and age. With the world prying at our thoughts from every angle, it is so easy to forget to search for those promptings that are so vital to our every day lives. We must have a desire to hear the words of the Spirit.

In Moroni 10:4, we are told the requirements to receive a witness from the Holy Ghost. The first thing is that we need to ask God, the Eternal Father, in the name of Christ. Ask is an action word, beginning with an action will result in a response or result. The second requirement is that we ask with a sincere heart, and real intent. The third requirement is having faith in Christ. I have learned that faith is vital to existence and to receiving revelation via the Holy Ghost. Everyone has faith, from my 2-year-old nephew to President Obama. Our Savior had faith in his father and His plan, and without that faith, there would be no point in ours.

Writing this paper has been an interesting experience for me. Usually when I receive an assignment like this, where we need to put our heart and soul into it, I can fake it very well. But, with this assignment I felt I could actually get something out of it. I have never been good at recognizing the Spirit. I always heard the stories of people who heard a voice tell them something, whether it was “slow down at this stoplight” or “go see Sister Smith”, but, I never had those experiences myself. I made right choices, and I definitely knew my conscience. But, my mind is a like a train station, where thoughts are coming and going, rushing in and out all day and all night, so it’s hard for me to distinguish between a random thought, and a prompting from the Spirit. As I began to ponder the topic I chose, I started to really try to recognize these promptings. I didn’t know what I was waiting for, a whisper from an unknown voice? Maybe something sounding like it was in the wind? I had no idea what to expect, but I was ready with a sincere heart, having real intent. I went to the temple to try to clear my mind of everything else, I prayed earnestly and waited for answers after my prayers. I didn’t have any specific questions or problems, but I knew the Spirit would still have something that I needed. It wasn’t until this past Sunday that it happened. I was fasting about the same subject, that I could recognize a prompting from the Spirit. I paid close attention to all of my lessons, and then in testimony meeting I couldn’t ignore a feeling in my heart to get up and bear my testimony. I stood at the pulpit and bore a simple testimony of the gospel. I did not get emotional or tell any stories, I just said what I knew. I sat down and took a deep breath, my mind was clear. I then had a thought, “you need to serve a mission”. This wasn’t a new voice, or something whispering through the wind. It was my own voice in my own head. It was an arbitrary thought, but I didn’t put it there. It was at that moment that I realized I was truly vulnerable to receiving that direct line of revelation because I wanted it so bad. It made me question how many promptings I have missed out on in my lifetime because I wasn’t trying my very hardest to have that line of communication with the Spirit.

This assignment has truly been a blessing in my life. It is my goal to be able to keep that channel open, to continue to be worthy of receiving promptings from the Holy Ghost. Through a still small voice, the Spirit speaks to me to guide me, to save me from the evil I may see. If I try to do what’s right, he will lead me thru the night. Direct me, protect me and give my soul his light. It is simple primary knowledge, if we can revert to a primary state of mind and clear out the world, that channel is open and available to all who desire it.

Friday, March 4, 2011

A little insight?

Hello dear readers.
I'm writing a paper for my Doctrine and Covenants class. The assignment is very specific yet very broad.

We can write about whatever we want, but it can't sound preachy or like a talk.
I've chosen to write about how we can distinguish between our own thoughts and promptings from the spirit. Sometimes I find when I'm praying for something, I'll think of what I want the answer to be... then I won't know if that was the spirit or if I'm just being selfish. Any insight, scripture, experience, etc. would be welcome. Feel free to email, text, facebook, or call me with anything if you don't want to leave a comment!

Thanks very much.

Cheers.
Katelin.