Unreal

Wellp. He has almost been home a week. We still keep laughing because we feel like he never left.

But he definitely left. The little things that are so different prove it. I never have to open my own car door. He is always on time. He is asking me what the plan is instead of complaining because I made a plan. And we read scriptures and say our prayers. Every day. Together.

We have spent a lot of time together in the last week. But I see no problem with that. We are trying to spend equal time at each of our homes. But it's hard when mine doesn't have a kitchen.

On Friday, I gave him his birthday present. We are going to Denver to see the Red Hot Chili Peppers [and his grandparents]. But We are so excited. He told me yesterday that he had just accepted the fact that he would never see them in concert. He is convinced this will be the best concert he has ever been to. I'm thrilled.

Then we spent the afternoon putting a cheap stereo in his lovely high school car. His brother went two years without one. I was sort of sad because we used to have such great talks because there was no radio. But I'm over it. We still talk.

We went to like eight stores to get the right stuff... His cousin thought we were cute in our colors pants so he took a picture.

Oh yeah! My best friends got married to each other! That was Friday as well. They were one of the first Sealings which was nice. Everything was amazing.

Trace was a gem and came to the reception with me. We actually went to my childhood best friend's reception as well. He was such a champ about me dragging him around and showing him off. Then he would hold my bridesmaid bouquet while I had to attend to bridesmaid duties. He wasn't even embarrassed when I climbed out of the pool... Fully clothed. With the rest of the bridal party. He is a keeper.

He is getting his guitar skill back. It's amazing.

His sister and mom and I took him shopping and got him some cute clothes. He finally agrees to wear clothes that fit. Thank you mission.

His homecoming was so great. His talk was amazing. And I loved catching up with his family and neighbors. The thing I missed most over the last two years was spending Sundays with this kid.

He helped my dad and Tyson tear down the kitchen. He's such a good boy.

And we started a colored pants club.

School starts Monday. Let the chaos begin.

730

Seven hundred and thirty days. That's how many I went without seeing him.
And it feels like he never left.



I have no other words.

Tonight.

Tracer used to use a really funny voice to sing TONIIIIGHT TONIGHT I'LL SEE MY LOVE TONIGHT! From west side story.

I can picture it perfectly.

So... Yeah. I slept more than I thought I would. I took my CTR ring off in my sleep which is super weird cuz I never take it off. Nervous ticks in my sleep? It's fine.

Pray for me. And him. Mostly him.

Expectations.

Dear Readers. 

There is nothing I can say that will convince you that I have no expectations. I wish somehow you could read my mind and look into my heart to see that I'm prepared for the worst. I'm hoping for the best. I'm a positive person, therefore I'm not going to go around telling people that it probably won't work out. 

I know how I need to behave. 

I KNOW HE WILL BE WEIRD. STOP TELLING ME THAT. 

This is not going to be a fairytale right off the bat. I'm prepared for that. But, I think that this will be a great experience for me. Sure there's been hype about it for what... two years? give or take? And sure, it would be easier if no one else was aware of what was happening. 

But. 

I will not do anything because someone expects it. I will behave how I feel like I need to behave. I will be as mature as I can be. I will be as in tune with the spirit as I can be. 

Please support me in this. And stop asking me when I'm getting married. I will punch you. 

Cordially, 
Kate

Livin it up.

So I had a small anxiety attack. Okay a large one. I called Lexi to talk it out and she told me to just stop running and talk to her... I wasn't running. I was driving. I think I was just at my nerves end. I have been so high strung about t coming home, not really in a bad way. But I just wasn't even having fun. Just felt like I needed to always be reading my scriptures and always be preparing. But hey guess what. He isnt gonna want to listen to only church music in the car. His idea of fun might include something other than only going to the temple. There is a happy medium that must be found.

I only have 12 days left. So I'm gonna have as much fun as I want.

We went downtown for Lexi's bachelorette party. Cyndi Mel and I wanted to try something new so we walked till we found somewhere we could eat. I had a caprese panini and it was so yummy! Very proud of myself.

We had a great time with all the girls. Did lots of shopping and chatting.

My friends and I watched a movie in cyndis backyard. So fun.

Disney day was a success. I'm only a few votes ahead. I need as many as possible! See my Facebook for the link :)

This kid had a birthday

And to celebrate, I ran six miles.

Emily had a 20's speakeasy mocktail themed bachelorette party and it was the bees knees. Then Kelly and I slept at aunt Karen's so we could get some extra sleep and save some gas.

In the morning we went over for breakfast and helped watch the nieces and nephew. Then we had to leave her brother all alone with them while we got ready then we came back while he got ready. We were a great team.

Then we watched mr and mrs barker come out of the beautiful bountiful temple and took pictures!

We got hungry before the luncheon so we had to make a crazy bread run.

We listened to lots of speeches

And had a grand ole time. What a beautiful wedding it was. Such a fun day! Oh and I caught myself a bouquet.

Here's to some late nights and spontaneity.

12 days.